Out of Goodbyes

A year ago

2012-02-14T01:04:00.000+08:00

Valentines' Day 2011

I'm still hoping, and hoping, for another chance.

Courage

2012-02-12T18:20:00.001+08:00

Chance

2012-02-05T20:18:00.002+08:00

One last chance, please..

Fragile

2012-02-05T02:10:00.000+08:00

Beginning to break down again.
Want to sleep but I can't.

Don't

2012-02-04T01:21:00.001+08:00

Dear girl, being able to complain is good because at least you're together. Don't pick on too many small things because it's going to hurt more if he leaves..

I went on the Tumblr I dedicated to him.

:'(

Imy

2012-02-04T00:08:00.001+08:00

I get the point that I should leave you alone but we both know that I'm not that strong.
:'(

Just one last shot, please..

Away

2012-02-03T01:43:00.002+08:00

Pain

2012-02-03T01:03:00.000+08:00

I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
I'd give it all, I'd give for us, give anything but I won't give up
- Far Away

Hope

2012-02-02T02:08:00.003+08:00

"I need you to share this optimism with me."

Please

2012-02-01T11:49:00.000+08:00

Dinner today

2012-01-31T23:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's dinner was prepared by my sister and tonight's dinner was prepared by me. Took turns cooking pasta from the new recipe book my sister bought :)

Spaghetti with garlic, chilli and oil

Prawns in oyster sauce

Goodbye Jan'2012

2012-01-31T22:37:00.000+08:00

Couldn't find a nice monthly photo for February so I did this.

Well well well, it's the last day of January today. It's a new month again and it will be the second month for the year 2012. I don't really agree with most people who say that January was a fast month. It was one of the slowest month for me. But the stretch of days for the Chinese New Year went by really quickly. Okay so January. It was a month full of mixed emotions. I was generally happy in school and it was great fun welcoming the new year with my beloved classmates from 2E5'08. The first few moments of this January were fun and warm. But like I said, it was a month full of mixed emotions. Friendships were okay. The only thing missing was from the relationship department. This month was so tough for me. He got busy and couldn't spared any time for me at all. So on and so fourth. In summary we didn't talk/meet up much at all.

Hahaha. Okay then January.

Welcomed the new year with Clarice, Isabelle, Jiale, Khairul, Maisheng, Shermaine, Rizky, Zafirah and Zubair :)
Went out with my family on the second day of the new year
Had a mini date with Jason after that
Watched 'The Darkest Hour' which sucked
Was happy that day because things went smoothly :)
Start of school
Had 'Multimedia Fundamentals' and 'History of Costume' as my modules
Was really lost in Multimedia Fundamentals because Sam, the lecturer, spoke so quickly and did the demonstrations so quickly. Okay.........
TP OPEN HOUSE
Saw many familiar faces in school during the 3 days
Realized I really miss PRSS
Attended the photoshoot for DYB (Design Year Banner)
Wore pink on that day because that was the colour assigned to ADM
Went to the temple to pray to Aunt
Went for Programmers' outing at Vivo
Blogshop-ed a lot x_x
Went home for Chinese New Year
Dyed my hair red
14th monthsary which was nothing much
Went to my cousin's house in JB
Was heartbroken a lot of times
Start of free block

That's generally it. January.. I remember more sad moments than happy moments and that's kinda upsetting :/ But anyway you won't feel happiness without some bitterness right? I hope February will bring about more happy moments for me. :) Here's to February!

Defeated

2012-01-31T19:03:00.000+08:00

I don't know what I should do to make you care about me. I really don't..

Can you enlighten me, please?
Please..?

hunger for food

2012-01-30T22:43:00.000+08:00

Oh anyway, I spent quite some time doing up my amateur web page for Multimedia Fundamentals. Head to this page and find my name labelled as 'novi'. Click on the name and you'll be directed to my web page. The dimension may be off on different laptops because of the width of the different laptops so yeah. It works fine on mine though, and on Macbook Pro 13". Oh well. :)

My lecturer spells my name as Novi and apparently, that's how almost everyone spell the name in TP. Hmm.

DDD

2012-01-30T21:51:00.000+08:00

Today is a good day spent for me. I woke up feeling kinda blue but the day continued with positivity and well, there were vibrant vibes around so it kinda made me feel better. I slept at 3 and woke up at 8 and I don't know why. It's the first day of my free block and well I was really tired. Tossed and turned on my bed and finally woke up at 10, hahaha. Used my laptop for a while and then caught up on a HK drama that I really like. Watched this drama while enjoying my cup noodles :)

So after watching the drama episodes, it was time for the next activity of the day..... baking. :) My sister and I baked Orange Chocolate cupcakes together. The recipe is from one of the three books she bought from PageOne at Harbor Front, the one which is closing down soon. Ahhhh :/

My sister and I went to the gym for some minor exercise thingy after that. Spent 35 minutes on the threadmill and it was good enough for me. Came back and helped to prepare dinner for a bit.

Thank you sis for the yummy dinner!

It's a very sinful meal for me because right after I finish my plate of pasta I had one of the cupcake together with a glass of milk. Oh my goodness it was divineeeeeeeeee. Simple joy in life :)

And then Ruixian texted me saying that she wanna come over to my house and I was like okay. A while later she called me and said her mother want to tag along to see how the house looks like, hahaha! So in the end they both came up the house and I got a red packet from her mother. Shy + happy, haha :)

Her mother left already and now she's ransacking through my things okay she just found my photographs box, very good. Yes she's making fun of me now. Okayyyyy. Hahaha.

I hope things can get better. I really do.

Tumblr quotes save the day

2012-01-30T10:54:00.001+08:00

“Some people think crying shows weakness. Some people choose to hold tears back. Some people believe crying is useless. Well, I believe crying is healthy. There will come a day, or maybe even a week, when everything seems to go wrong. You’ve been disappointed. You realize you’re not good enough. You can’t get what you want. & then, no one seems to understand. But you know what. Just cry. It doesn’t mean crying everyday but just sit yourself down & cry.Think about what’s been killing you. What’s been festering inside. Let every single negative thing out. & after you cry, never think about it again. Crying doesn’t mean you’re breaking down but it’s signs of strength. Don’t ignore your feelings, instead embrace them. Walk away stronger. Stand taller. & never let those things bring you down ever again.”

“Grief, a type of sadness that most often occurs when you have lost someone you love, is a sneaky thing, because it can disappear for a long time, and then pop back up when you least expect it.”
— Lemony Snicket

“I think what I have learned most is that, I’ll never be perfect. I’m not talking about just looks or things like that, but in every part of life, I’ll always be flawed. I’m sure a lot of girls feel that way too and I know that dudes do cause I live with a bunch of them. The greatest feeling is knowing that I don’t have to be right.”
— Hayley Williams

My mistake

2012-01-30T01:42:00.001+08:00

I might have fallen in love with somebody whom I don't even know well. I'm re-introducing myself to the you from 2010. And I'm getting some answers, I hope.

Goodnight, sleep tight. Have a good day in school tomorrow.

888

2012-01-30T00:55:00.003+08:00

i hate crying but sometimes it's the only form of release

2012-01-30T00:30:00.001+08:00

The best thing is that I can't find the right words to express myself anymore. The best thing..

2012-01-30T00:01:00.002+08:00

Jason Tan stop fucking with my feelings and not giving a single damn about how I feel. Really.

#nowwatching: P.S. I Love You

2012-01-27T17:31:00.001+08:00

Holly Kennedy: That's a real honest to goodness couple right there. They've probably been together since the flood.

Daniel Connelly: We're so arrogant, aren't we? So afraid of age, we do everything we can to prevent it. We don't realize what a privilege it is to grow old with someone. Someone who doesn't drive you to commit murder or doesn't humiliate you beyond repair.

"Meeting boyfriend ah?"

2012-01-27T16:20:00.001+08:00

I can't believe I'm still crying over things like this. He has put me through so many similar situations I should be used to everything he says/does that hurt me. I can't believe I'm so weak. I can't believe I can't hold back my tears even when I'm in school. I can't believe it.

Nisa: Today wear so nice meet boyfriend ah? ;)
Me: No

There she goes again, getting upset over a guy who doesn't care.

It's over, it's over!

2012-01-26T18:41:00.000+08:00

I am officially done with both History of Costume and Multimedia Fundamentals and I couldn't be more proud. Proud as in I rode through the week surpassing my growing enthusiasm for my free block. Yeah you know sometimes when you know something good is gonna happen you'll put off what you have to do to think about the good happening? That kinda happened to me for the whole of this week. And it being a Chinese New Year festival too, well that really posed a big challenge for my work process. I didn't put in my 100% for both modules but I know if I were to do what I had in mind it would have taken me a lot of time. Maybe even causing me to miss the deadline. I'm happy for whatever I'm managed to produce. :)

*Good job, pats self on back*

I think I reward and praise myself too much, hahaha. But it's better than those who always push themselves to the maximum and not settling for anything less. Even if you were to complete something and it is up to your own standard, there really isn't much to learn from is it? Well for me I've learnt when to let go and when to push harder. This time I've decided to travel in a slow speed because I know I've already shown the lecturers what I'm capable of. I don't believe in perfection, I believe in recognising my own work. :)

So I got so happy I took 9 photos at one shot, teehee

Programme meeting in just a bit! Ciao for now!

I hate this challenge

2012-01-26T14:38:00.000+08:00

Disclaimer: I hate this challenge.
Day 08: Favorite picture of the band

Fuck my favourite picture of the band isn't in my laptop anymore -_- Anyway here's the second favourite one!

Day 09: Were you upset when Josh and Zac left?

Yes. And it was the most upsetting when I found out that the brothers left after feeling unhappiness while in the band. There just goes to show that we really can't see things just from the surface. :(

Day 10: Favorite quote?

"God knows the world doesn't need another band."

Day 11: Favorite video and why?

Day 12: Are you excited for any new Paramore material?

Their new album coming out this year. :)

Day 13: Which hair color is the best on Hayley?

Red, red, red.

Day 14: Have you been to one of their concerts, if so, explain the experience?

I've actually been to their concert twice in my entire life and I'm so thankful for the wonderful experience my goodness. Paramore live and recorded are totally different, seriously. I mean yeah they sound good recorded (duh who doesn't) but you can really feel your goosebumps when you hear them live. THEY ARE ELECTRIFYING. THEY ARE AWESOME, THEY ARE PARAMORE.

Day 15: Do you plan on buying their new material?

Yes.

Valentines' Day come quickly please!

2012-01-26T14:11:00.000+08:00

Come on, you're taking forever. :(

Anywhere but here

2012-01-26T10:06:00.000+08:00

Relevant to the maximum of all maximums.

880th

2012-01-25T23:07:00.000+08:00

It's 25th January 2012, 7 months ago.

School was good today. I saw Vaddi and that really made me happy because it has been so long since someone so enthusiastic and cheerful about life influenced me. And that really set everything in place. I got inspired and had a renewed motivation about my own future. All that came when I was on the bus home just now. I deliberately took 8 with Peggy from my school to Tampines Interchange just to take 38 home. It's a longer bus ride, it's a detour but at least I benefited along the way. I thought about my future again, and I haven't been giving it a serious thought for a pretty long time.

I'm thankful I'm given the freedom and liberty to plan out my future and have my family agree with me.
I can do it, I know I can. :)

Opps you did it again

2012-01-25T09:28:00.001+08:00

I'm thankful I wasn't late for school even though my phone which was supposed to wake me up lost its battery life overnight. I can't imagine how badly I would have panicked and freak out if I were to wake up like 9 or something. I'm thankful that I have a body alarm clock that I can count on. :)

And to someone? I'm really tired of your hot and cold attitude. Am I really that disposable in your life that you get all sweet and caring when you want to be and then the next moment you're like some stranger? What's wrong again? What's wrong with you?

Still loving my hair hehe ;)

Dragon year

2012-01-24T23:19:00.000+08:00

恭喜发财!

May the year of the dragon bring success and prosperity to everyone :)

The rad hair

2012-01-22T18:02:00.000+08:00

Let the pictures do the talking.

21st January 2012.

;)

S&S

2012-01-22T12:51:00.000+08:00

Day 07: Least favourite member and why?

I am really starting to think if this challenge is really just about the superficial issues on loving a band. I mean once you love a band, naturally you'll grow to love every single thing about them. What's with the questions on least favourite song/album/member? Urgh. I'm getting pissed off by this stupid challenge thing.

Little rocking horse

2012-01-22T00:35:00.000+08:00

I bought accessories from an online shop a month back and the items finally arrived on Thursday! Just in time for Chinese New Year, hehehe. :)

Day 05: Least favorite song and why?

Day 06: Least favorite album and why?

These two challenges for day 5 and 6 are really irrelevant. I mean, I don't even dislike any of their songs or somewhere along that line. I don't have any least favourite song but one song which will bring sad memories is 'When It Rains' from Riot!. That song just brings back a lot of memories from a certain chapter of my life which I hope had not even happened at all. But well everyone has bad encounters in everything right? Haha :)

Carry on

2012-01-21T23:59:00.003+08:00

Happy 14th monthsary :)

It's a cold cold world

2012-01-20T10:28:00.000+08:00

Day 04: Favourite single

I don't really get today's challenge though. But heck. My favourite single from Paramore? Hello Cold World. Yeah, hello cold, cold world.

I feel happy, I feel sad, I feel like running through the walls

I'm overjoyed, I'm undecided, I don't know who I am

Well maybe I'm not perfect, at least I'm working on it

22 is like the worst idea that I've ever had

It's too much pain, it's too much freedom, what should I do with this?

It's not the way you plan it, it's how you make it happen

Yeah, it's how you make it happen

It's such a cold, cold world (hello cold world)

And I can't get out, so I'll just make the best with everything I'll never have

Such a cold, cold world (hello cold world)

And it's got me down, but I'll get right back up, as long as its spins around

Hello cold world

Whoa oh oh

Girls and boys keep lining up to see if they can measure up

They look good, and they feel wild, but it will never be enough

You say you're really hurtin, at least you're feeling something

We can hope and we can pray that everything will work out fine

But you can't just stay down on your knees, the revolution is outside

You wanna make a difference, get out and go and get it

Whoa, get out and go and get it

It's such a cold, cold world (hello cold world)

And I can't get out, so I'll just make the best of everything I'll never have

Such a cold, cold world (hello cold world)

And It's got me down, but I'll get right back up, as long as its spins around

Hello cold world...

Oh oh...

(Oh oh...) Don't need my eyes open... wide

(Oh oh...) I just wanna feel something

Such a cold, cold world (hello cold world)

And I can't get out, so I'll just make the best of everything I'll never have

Such a cold, cold world (hello cold world)

And It's got me down, but I'll get right back up, as long as its spins around (spins around)

Whoa oh oh

Whoa oh oh (Hello cold world)

Whoa oh oh

Whoa oh oh (Hello cold world)

True love? Only in my imagination

2012-01-20T10:20:00.001+08:00

I love to watch romantic movies because it gives me hope that true and passionate love really exist in this world. I need this justification when all I know is love which fades away in time. Reality doesn't have room for intense and caring love for me, and all these romantic movies? It's my only comfort, my only assurance.

Day 3 of 15

2012-01-19T16:26:00.000+08:00

Day 03: Favourite member

It was Josh, then Hayley. But now that Josh isn't in Paramore anymore, I don't have any favourites. They are just my number one favourite band. :)

Now that I'm losing hope, and there's nothing else to show.

2012-01-18T11:00:00.000+08:00

15 days of Paramore
Day 02: Favorite song and why?

Crushcrushcrush
Pressure
That's What You Get

I like so many songs from Paramore omg! I can't think of the top favourite song but the three songs that I like the most are 'Crushcrushcrush', 'Pressure' and 'That's What You Get'. 'Pressure' from Paramore's first album and the remaining two from the second album. I don't really have a reason for liking 'Pressure' though, maybe just the impact of the lyrics? Each time when I take a long bus ride this song would definitely be on my playlist. It's like a song for my 'get-into-deep-thinking' mode, haha!

Pressure - Paramore

Tell me where our time went
And if it was time well spent
Just don't let me fall asleep
Feeling empty again

'Cause I fear I might break
And I fear I can't take it
Tonight I'll lie awake feeling empty

I can feel the pressure, it's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure, it's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Now that I'm losing hope
And there's nothing else to show
For all of the days that we spent
Carried away from home

Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone feeling empty

I can feel the pressure, it's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure, it's getting closer now
We're better off without you
Without you

Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone feeling empty

I can feel the pressure, it's getting closer now
We're better off without you
Feel the pressure, it's getting closer now
You're better off without me

As for 'Crushcrushcrush', I find it a rebel song for me. I don't know why. HAHA. I just like it la okay. And then it comes to the last song, 'That's What You Get'. I like this song because it contains one of the happiest memories of my life. This song was you know, 'trending' when I was with Javier in the past. And I was really happy back at that time. I know this is a sucky explanation but really, this song just brings back all the fond memories. People change, but memories? They will never ever change.

I'm in class now, not paying attention to Sam. Opps. So dead. 60% completion by tomorrow I'm at 5%.

G-double O-D-J-O-B, GOOD JOB, GOOD JOB.

Leaving on a Sunday

2012-01-17T22:19:00.001+08:00

Hiiiiii so I'm really supposed to be working on my web design assignment thingy and prepare for the interim presentation on Thursday. The interim presentation has to have like 60% of the completed work and guess where am I right now? 0% Weeeeee!

Anyway I'm still going to go ahead with the challenge (15 days of Paramore)

Day 01: Favourite album and why?

My favourite album from Paramore has got to be 'The Final Riot'. It is amazing because Hayley's vocals really shine out throughout the entire album and it's a great feat because all the songs were recorded live at the concert in Chicago. Besides the power of Hayley's vocals, I could literally feel that I was at the concert itself because there were interactions with the audience and the voices of the audience singing along to all the songs were so distinct and clear. Also I like this album because it's not known to most mainstream listeners but fans of Paramore are definitely aware of it. In a way it's like listening to Paramore but on a more personal level because it is really just you, as the fan of Paramore and the band itself. It is a kind of intimacy that I feel only fans would understand. It's like other bands having a live album recorded but not many would know of it apart from the fans of those bands because that's just the way it is. Being a fan of a band means you would know most of the band's information by default. Haha I'm blabbering on and on about this but yeah 'The Final Riot' is my favourite album from Paramore. :)

Oh I went shopping with my sister earlier on today. We went to Bugis Street and I got myself two pairs of footwear and two tops. One red top for the first day of Chinese New Year and another buttoned vintage-looking top heheh. I'm happy today though my wallet isn't feeling the same. Alright I think I have to work on my website now, bbye!

MYFML

2012-01-17T11:38:00.001+08:00

I'm currently damn annoyed by someone I think he knows who he is. I seriously don't know how to get my point across to his thick skull. It's like impenetrable or something or he is just simply fucking stubborn and selfish. I HAVE SO MANY BAD WORDS TO DESCRIBE YOU NOW BUT I WON'T LIST ALL OF THEM OUT BECAUSE I KNOW I WILL FEEL BAD AFTER I'VE CALMED DOWN.

You suck.

Anyway I saw a .gif on Tumblr and it cheered me up, something opposite that asshole has been doing. My goodness he is too selfish and stubborn OMG. Urgh -.-

Oh yeah anyway the gif.

So cute, hi there adorable darling!

(If you can't see the moving image you probably have to click on it)

Safe and sound

2012-01-16T12:19:00.001+08:00

I don't read 'The Hunger Games'. But I like Taylor Swift and I think the song she sang for THG soundtrack is beyond amazing. It's not her distinctive style but yet she brought the lyrics to life. I really really like this song. :)

I remember tears streaming down your face

When I said, I'll never let you go

When all those shadows almost killed your light

I remember you said, Don't leave me here alone

But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight...

Just close your eyes

The sun is going down

You'll be alright

No one can hurt you now

Come morning light

You and I'll be safe & sound...

Don't you dare look out your window darling;

Everything's on fire

The war outside our door keeps raging on

Hold onto this lullaby

Even when the music's gone, gone

Just close your eyes

The sun is going down

You'll be alright

No one can hurt you now

Come morning light

You and I'll be safe & sound...

Oooooo, Oooooo,

Oooooo, Oooooo

Lala... Lala...

Oooooo, OooOoo,

Oooooo, OooOoo

Lala... Oh Lala...

Just close your eyes

You'll be alright

Come morning light,

You and I'll be safe & sound...

Oooooo, OoooOooo,

Oooooo, OoooOooo...

Venice!

2012-01-16T12:09:00.001+08:00

On a totally random note, I really want to go Venice.

Venice is said to be sinking at an alarming rate....

Please hang in there and let as many people visit this beautiful city. :(

On a side note as well, I have always talked to Jason about going there for our honeymoon..

(DON'T LAUGH OKAY ITS' NORMAL TO THINK OF GETTING MARRIED TO YOUR BOYFRIEND.)

Eh seriously don't laugh, pfft.

Okay be it Jason or not, I still want to go there for my honeymoon.

Such a beautiful and romantic place. :)

RVM :)

2012-01-16T12:02:00.000+08:00

At 11:11am this morning, I checked my allocated results for my year 2 and 3 option block and I got my choice. Retail and visual merchandising. Coincidental much that I saw it at 11:11? :)

I'm proud of myself for choosing this because of what I want and not because of the influence my friends have over me. I could have easily chosen fashion design because most of my close friends are going for that but I didn't, because I know I wouldn't do as well as them. Sewing and designing? Sounds fun but I'm definitely not going to embark any career within that faculty. Retail and visual merchandising appealed more to me because of its wider range of careers available. I can do sewing whenever I want at home, I can design as a freelance designer. But choosing retail and visual merchandising? It really will teach me the principals and essence of being someone who can sell the products of a brand and company. Yay Novy! All the best. :)

I'll be okay

2012-01-15T22:22:00.000+08:00

Hi I am very bored.

Bloody assignments. Who in the right mind would want to do you. Bitches. Scram!!! :c

Camwhoring in school

2012-01-15T22:09:00.001+08:00

I'm so shameless in school that when my classmates were going through consultation sessions with Wilson (my lecturer), I was busy camwhoring.

And the best part is when Wilson turned around and told me to 'not fool around with my laptop', HAHAHAHA. Oh did I mention that the Year 2 ADM-ers saw me camwhoring as well? Cos we were separated by only a glass panel. Woohoo.

The Other Boleyn Girl

2012-01-15T03:47:00.000+08:00

I'm currently taking History of Costume in school right now and I must say that it is really interesting because I get to research on fashion from the past and how the people lived and yeah, things like that. I did Greek for my first assignment and now for my second assignment I'm doing on Medieval time period. The vague idea of their fashion came from Sims, hahaha. But anyway I find this time period so interesting! And to top it off, I just finished watching 'The Other Boleyn Girl'. It is actually a movie released in 2008 and it's about King Henry (don't know which one), Anne Boelyn and yeah. The movie really really focused on the Medieval times, everything was in place. It gave me a stronger idea and basis for my research and creations. :)

Okay so anyway I'm multi-tasking right now and I came across this blog on Valentino Fall 2011 couture. Oh my goodness, it is so so so good. I mean I got more sensitive to Medieval elements after watching the movie and wow, I really get the Medieval atmosphere and feel when I see pictures of Valentino Fall 2011 collection. It is really amazing and it really really captures the essence of the Medieval elements, goodness.

Here are some pictures!

The dress is so similar to the structure of the medieval architecture/buildings! And I like this collage though, the colours used are slightly dull but boom, you can see the differences through the similarities.

Really am so amazed by these garments. Too bad I can't be a good fashion designer. It would have been fun, challenging yet rewarding and satisfying.

Okay back to work! :)

Movies in 2012

2012-01-13T23:49:00.000+08:00

Movies I must watch in 2012.

Saw the trailer for 'Snow White and the Huntsman' and I really really want to catch the movie! I like twisted tales that's why. (Omg no wonder I like Tangled as well hahaha) and yeah, I gotta watch 'Tangled Ever After' too!! As for 'Perks of being a Wallflower', I don't know if they're gonna screen it in Singapore but they better do cos it's freaking Emma Watson and Logan Lerman, like hello? And I've already wrote one post last year about this movie, can't believe Singapore is that slow. And....... STEP UP 4, WHOOP WHOOP. Have watched the previous 2 in cinemas (pfft first movie of step up was like *cough*) and I wanna watch the sequel to get the 'feel' hahahahahahaha. And lastly, but not to say the least...

THE VOW.

Omg I don't even know how to express my desire to catch this movie. Have been waiting for this day for a loooooooong time oh my gosh! Come on, get screened already!!!! I can't wait!!!!

860

2012-01-11T21:47:00.000+08:00

伤心

-'-

2012-01-10T22:21:00.002+08:00

Don't fucking be so insensitive and obvious at this time period, thank you very much.

I'm told that pain is just a simple compromise

2012-01-10T21:53:00.000+08:00

The satisfaction of relief is temporary and short-lived when you have to start worrying about assignment deadlines for your other module. The cycle repeats itself again and again.

And it doesn't help when I have so many negative thoughts in my mind.

Sometimes I really just want to give everything up.
And just be alone.

Emo my darling

2012-01-09T00:31:00.001+08:00

For those of you who do not know, I love pugs. And I have a virtual pug as my pet and he's adorable and cute and really just a darling. Whenever I get a glimpse of his face I'm reminded of how insignificant my problems are as compared to those living in poverty and illness.

Well then, here's my pug, Emo.

I love you, Emo.

You're always there for me.

Open up

2012-01-08T23:59:00.006+08:00

I don't regard you as what I've regarded you in the past anymore.

Today was a stay home day for me and I did some of my work. Now I'm left with colouring and the powerpoint slides for History of Costume and Multimedia Fundamentals.

I'm currently watching a drama series called 'United States of Tera' with my sister and I think I'm getting hooked on it. No good, no good. I haven't even started on the Vampire Diaries! Oh man. But anyway there's always the free block that's around the corner. Not really coming but I'm really looking forward to it. I need a break from everything. Maybe I'll go out like thrice in a week by myself just sitting down at a cafe with a good book or maybe just writing down my feelings. I have this choked up feeling lately and it goes away every once in a while but it always comes back. Always do and I don't know how to make it go away, for good.

Anyway there's no school tomorrow so yay :)

Temasek's me, Temasek's you.

2012-01-06T17:17:00.002+08:00

It's the TP Open House day 2 today! I'm in school at the CAD lab right now, finally cooled down. Went to dance with people from Design school (TP mass dance, chicken dance and TP school song) I love TP. :)

A turtle high 5!

(I think you have to click on it if it's not moving)

My laptop is dying, gosh. It has been dying really fast or maybe I just don't notice the time whenever I'm on the laptop, hahaha! It's currently at 10% and I don't know why I'm blogging this down -_-

Oh and I borrowed a bow just now!

Teehee :)

Alright, bye.

First month of the new year

2012-01-05T00:52:00.002+08:00

Got so caught up welcoming 2012 as a whole that I've forgotten to welcome the arrival/return of January. Hi January, so far you've been great. Keep it up, will ya? ;)

Uh huh, you got that right bitches.

2012-01-03T14:31:00.001+08:00

"Math is easy, design is hard."

(Photo credit: @luxeraw on Twitter)

This is the reason why I love my school so much. Design oiiiiiii.

And this is the reason why TP Design school kicks serious ass.

Because we're cool like that. ;)

2012 Resolutions!

2012-01-03T00:02:00.001+08:00

So I've been on Tumblr a lot these few days (hahaha no, I'm always on Tumblr) and I came across a lot of new year's resolutions by people from all over the world. I tend to reblog most of those posts because I agree with their resolutions and stuff like that. So anyway, that gave me inspiration for my list of resolutions. My resolutions for the year 2011 were to smile at strangers, stay in touch, appreciate the simple things, know my limits, be a better person, always stay positive and to be myself. Hmm, interesting. I wrote all of these resolutions in my 2011 planner and I refer to them whenever I can. I think I've managed to stay in touch (with most people anyway), have learnt to appreciate more simple things in life, began to know my own limits and tried my very best to remain positive for almost everything. I believe by doing all of the mentioned, I've been myself. :) And now, I don't want to smile at strangers anymore. Heck what was I thinking -_- that's so creepy. Okay maybe to some friendly neighbours or something, hahaha.

So yes, I've came up with my resolutions for the year 2012!!!!!!!

(Copyrighted okay. Go make your own resolutions! Hehehehehehe)

Okay this time I have 10 resolutions but I think I can really keep to the list because I think this year's resolutions is much more realistic and practical than last year's (sheesh, seriously, smile at strangers.......?) Hahaha and I just read my description for that particular resolution and to the 2011-fresh Novy..? That was just creepy okay? CREEPY. Okay but anyway, you had good intentions alright? I know that darling. (Omg I'm talking to myself hahahahahahaha okay.)

Tumblr less
Work hard for my assignments
Be myself
Smile more
Bake for a friend
Think more happy thoughts
Help out more at home
Be a better person
Save more $$$
Take chances

Wee I'm satisfied with this list of resolutions!!! Okay let me go into details (not really that detailed) about the resolutions.

Firstly, the first resolution is clearly something which I will likely to fail in trying to accomplish. I mean come on. Tumblr and less don't even go well together, they are like enemies or something. They are two like poles and will just continue to repel each other, like how like magnets do. Okay you get the drift haha!

The second one is one that I will really, really try my utmost best to really see it through. My GPA is currently hanging at a precarious grade of 2.93 which isn't acceptable at all. It didn't even hit a 3.0! Damn. I really gotta work harder for my assignments and make sure that I can bring my GPA up because seriously, having a GPA that doesn't start with the number 3 is a little depressing.

For the third, fourth and eighth resolutions, I just have to be myself, but be a better self. Be myself = keeping faith, laughing at almost everything, smile, clumsy at times etc etc. Better self = manage my time well, be more patient and understanding etc. And while at it, smile! Haha okay this is going to be easy. Not really.

Fifth resolution, bake for a friend!!!! I've not been baking much for the past few months or maybe for the past year and I really want to bake as much as I can because I just simply love to bake. There's so many recipes that I've saved and bookmarked but yeah, they're just saved and bookmarked. I want to follow the recipe and bake something out of the recipe and maybe adjust the proportions of the ingredients to have my own style, you know? Haha. The first one I want to try is rainbow cupcakes/rainbow cake. So many people have been baking this cake and I want to do it as well, hmph. Just you wait.

THINK MORE HAPPY THOUGHTS, NOVY. :D (There, I just thought about so many happy things and thus the wide smile)

To help out more at home is actually a hidden resolution that is to be less lazy at home. My elder sister has been doing almost everything at home and well I just create mess for her to clean up :x I gotta take the initiative to do what I'm supposed to do and to do what I can do. It's gonna be hard for me since I'm so lazy but it's part of my responsibility!

I. HAVE. TO. SAVE. MORE. MONEY. I've already calculated the amount of money I want to save up for the year. I thought about this when I was bathing one night and I got so excited about it that I forgot to shampoo my hair. (I did shampoo after realising I've forgotten about it though) In the year 2012, I want to save around $3000. At this rate, I'll be able to save $6000 by 2013 and then by then my bank will be $xx,xxx. Okay sounds like a good plan. Go, Novy. And may you resist your temptations of shopping etc.

That's about it. My resolutions for the year. :)

NOVY THE AWESOME CAN DO THIS.

SWAGGGGGGG.

;)

First post of the year!

2012-01-01T23:32:00.001+08:00

Happy 2012 :)

I just want to say that I had a great countdown outing with my beloved 2E5'08 people. Honestly I really enjoyed myself a whole lot and not one negative thing was on my mind the entire time. Thank you for the awesome company :)

Was browsing through my old posts and I just realised that I was the one who dragged everyone out just for the Countdown fireworks last year :x Opps hehehe, but I believe everyone had a good time, from 2011's outing to yesterday's one :) Omg wts I look really terrible last year. I'm glad there's a little improvement this year, hahaha!

Anyway, this is officially the first post ever for 2012! I think I'm gonna think about my resolutions these few days. The inspiration came a little late this time, because I was so sure that I'm not going to have any resolutions but then again, I've always made a list. I'm used to making lists and not making one makes me feel uneasy so yeah, I will have my resolutions thought out!

So here's to a merry merry ~~Christmas~~ 2012, cheers! :D

Goodbye 2011

2011-12-31T14:20:00.003+08:00

Here it is, the last day ever for the year 2011. The year is finally coming to an end but man, it came so quickly. 2011 was, as a whole, quite a bittersweet year for me. Of course it will never beat 2008 because that was honestly the best year. 2010 came in second. But 2011 was better than 2009 but it still sucked. Today being the last day of December 2011 as well, there will be two summaries. One for the month of December, and one for the year itself. Here goes!

December 2011
(Omg I just realised it's gonna be really short, hahaha)

Caught 'You're the Apple of My Eye' with Jason
LOVE THE MOVIE
Supposed to share a flea with Meisian and her friends but I gave that a miss
Had a super cold 'Cold War' with Jason
Caught 'Breaking Dawn, Part I' with Isabelle
Was happy that there wasn't any awkwardness :)
Sent out cards as usual, but they were really late
Proud of myself for my FIP work hehehe
Had a games try-out day (Programmers and MainComm)
Submitted my subject selection preferences
HOLIDAYS
DOTC1
Met up with Hengle and Melody
It was a really fun meet-up
Fell sick and have not recovered up till today :/
Had dinner at home with my two sisters on Christmas Eve
Spent Christmas at home
Had post-mortem in school with Programmers
Gave out Christmas presents and sent out Christmas cards
Attended a Christmas party in school on the 28th
Went to Johor Bahru with ADM-ers
FOUND GREAT BARGAIN DEALS
Finally went to 112 with Jason
Counting down to 2012 with Clarice, Isabelle, Jiale, Khairul, Maisheng, Rizky, Shermaine, Zubair

December was a pretty slow month for me but it wasn't that slow since 2011 is bidding all of us goodbye in a blink of an eye (omg it rhymes hahaha) Anyway 2011. It was year of many 'firsts' for me. I tried a lot of new things that I've never wanted or dared to try before. I experienced death and loss for the very first time and it really, really hurts. I met new people and made new friends and at the same time, I drifted away from some but it's okay, people come and go. I've learnt to let go of things that will make me unhappy and learnt to fight and hold on to those that I know will make me happy. I've got to know more about myself and I'm really glad. I still have tons of bad habits and maybe throughout this whole year, I've picked up more bad habits. 2011 was really a year about give and take, and of love and loss. It's too emotion-packed you know? When I'm happy, I was really really overjoyed. But when I get upset, the feelings were so overbearing and choking. But in all, I'm glad the year is coming to an end, because a new year usually means a new beginning right? Not new changes though, I disagree with that. If you want to make changes, why not start now, right? Before I bid 2011 goodbye, let me summarise the year as a whole! :)

Started writing birthday cards and sending them out
Got my O levels results and had mixed feelings (12)
Had my first ever part-time job @ Kashmir
Earned my own money for the first time
Posted into Apparel Design & Merchandising in TP, appealed and failed
Went to Taylor Swift's 'Speak Now' concert with my younger sister
Carried a dog for the first time
Overcame my phobia of pets
Bought a camera with my pay
Lost, found, lost my Hazel phone
Attended TPSU's Freshmen Orientation Workshop
Went for Design School's DOC and had a lot of fun
Start of Poly life
Made a lot of new friends
Hectic school schedule with all the assignments
Went to a flea market for the very first time
Lost my aunt
Spent a few weeks tearing and tearing again and again
Lost my faith in many things
Went to Paramore's concert with Jason
Played dress-up for the first time (for school assignment)
Watched a circus performance for the first time (Voyage de la Vie)
Attended the World Runway Premiere with ADM-ers
Had a flea booth for the first time together with Meisian, Peggy and Shi Hui
Celebrated my 17th birthday in advance with my family
Celebrated my 17th birthday with Jason
Took up Italian language class in school
Marked one year anniversary with Jason
Got into DOC's Programmers team and made new friends
Attended Design Orientation Training Camp 1
Went to another country for a shopping trip for the first time
Had many conflicts with different people in the year
Did a lot of silent reflections
Had many doubts and questions regarding different issues
Wanted to start thinking at a more mature perspective
Disgusted by some people's behaviours
Planned my future out

Now thinking back, 2011 wasn't really a bad year. The loss of my aunt was a heart-breaker but it also taught me a lot of valuable lessons about life. I had, in some way or another, took for granted of my aunt's existence. I've always told myself that I'll pay back what she had given me 'later'. This mindset eventually cost me a whole lot. I've been trying to rid myself of that bad mindset ever since but I think the process is kinda slow-moving. That being said, I think it's good because at least I'm trying. But to some people, I think I'm slowly giving up because I realised that even if I want to change, others may not be as accepting and willing. It is really about giving and taking and I hope that the new year will bring about more willingness and openness for others to reciprocate some actions.

So 2011, thank you for all of the wonderful memories you've brought along with you. It was a really swift year, everything happened so quickly. Thank you to those who are still in my life, and to those who make an effort to remain in my life. Thank you to those who left, because you taught me that everything will eventually leave me one day. Thank you to those who were always there for me through everything and regardless of anything, you guys know who you are. Thank you to those who were simply my friends, for sticking by my side, for sharing my joy and woes. Thank you to the new friends I've met. Thank you to my family for the support. Thank you everyone, for the year.

(Omg that sounded like a thank you speech an actress give after getting an award, haha!)

2011, you came and you're going.

Time to make way for 2012. :)

A day of fun in Design School :)

2011-12-28T23:58:00.026+08:00

Today was a really great day spent in school! There was this post-mortem meeting for Programmers so we met up to sort of give evaluations on the camp and on our individual efforts. There were so many sweets, so many chocolates, so many little gifts which really warm my heart :)

The post-mortem was generally OK, but the Programmer heads said I was too shy and too quiet................. Which I'm totally not. Hahaha! It's true though, I don't really speak up in Programme meetings and during the camp itself I was like shy-shy, teehee. (LOL) but those who know me damn well know that I'm not really associated with the words 'shy' and 'quiet' right? Hahaha :) I just need a little more time, a little more time to say the words I haven't say~ (FYI it's a Maroon 5 song)

The next event after the post-mortem IS WHEN ALL THE FUN REALLY BEGINS. Woo!!!!!!! There was a Christmas party in school, and yes it's not Christmas anymore, and yes it was a Christmas party, but we still had hell loads of fun and entertainment! Food was everywhereeeeeeeee. There were pasta, beehoon, fried rice, popcorn chicken, salad, eggs, brownies (!!!), cookies, jelly, beverages. IT WAS LIKE A FOOD PARADISE OMG. The brownies were seriously damn good, I wonder who was the one who baked all those sinful desserts, gonna be his/her friend hehe. Kidding~ Anyway, I really had a lot of fun today and I'm kinda lazy to continue the event flow and yeah, pictures!

It was an awesome Christmas party, and I will be going to JB for a serious case of thrift-shopping with my fellow ADMers tomorrow, and then I will spend some quality time by myself on Friday, and then I'll be meeting 2E5'08 people for new year's countdown on Saturday, and then it'll be New Year's Day on Sunday.

LIFE'S GOOD ;)

Peaches

2011-12-27T17:39:00.001+08:00

“Sometimes I hear a song, or look at a certain something and a bunch of feelings hit me like a ton of bricks. I start missing all these things that used to be there. Like friendships and relationships. It just makes me think about everything that caused it to end. Then I step back, and take a look at my life. If you’re in it, you obviously have a place. If you aren’t in it, then you just don’t belong.. And if it’s taken me this long to realize it, then maybe you didn’t matter that much in the first place.”

Insecurities

2011-12-27T16:42:00.000+08:00

I have always felt inadequate. Inadequacy has always been my fear through my childhood, through all these years. I'm scared to falter in my family because there will always be people who can easily outdo me in anything. I've never talked about this loosely to anybody before, wait, I literally have never mentioned this to anyone before. I don't even write in my diary anymore. I find myself getting harder to find the right words to express my feelings that's why my blog these days are more visual than usual.

When I was young, I was taught to give in to my younger sister. "She's your younger sister, you should give in to her." Comments like that were very thrown around quite often. I didn't like it. I didn't like the fact that I had to share everything with my younger sister, just because she is my younger sister. The thought of being the youngest seemed so appealing when I was a kid, because then I would have everybody giving in to me. Anyway that's not the point. The point is I've always felt unsure of myself. My younger sister, especially. She is a witty and really smart girl. I can't and will never ever to compare to her, or anyone else from my family. My eldest sister? She managed to go through university and emerged the top student or something. Then she went on to work for my father and helped him with his business. And now she's happily married, with a new life, a new direction. She has since changed from the old her but she's happy now. My elder brother? Whoa. Top student from high school, top student in University. Seriously, they just make it seem so easy but I know when I try to at least act like a hardworking/smart student, I fail terribly. My brother is so brilliant in his studies I don't even know how he did it. And now he's working in OCBC bank with bright prospects because he has a Masters degree from NTU. Next comes my elder sister. She is the one I've always looked up to because I want to be like her but I know I will never be anything like her. I don't even know where to start. She was in Dunman High School, then in Temasek JC, then NTU and has since graduated. She is really an all-rounder. She plays sports, she excels in her studies, and because of her determined mindset, she achieves everything she has planned for herself. My siblings, they are all so perfect and really like the best set of children anyone can ever ask for.

Then there's me.

I was a stubborn kid. I break rules, I rebel, I steal, I talk back to everyone and the list goes on. Every family has the black horse and the bad kid right? I'm the one. No matter how hard I try, life always switch my plans and make me look really bad. Let's just talk about my Poly education. I've long planned to go to SP for the Accountancy course (I'm still sore over this) and I've already planned on my life after Poly. Not to be arrogant or cocky or whatever, but I'm sure 70% of those in Poly do not have the slightest clue as to what they want to do/be after Poly. For once in my life, I was confident and was happy and proud of myself for thinking about my future and really working hard towards it. Everybody can see the disappointment on my face when I learnt that I got a B3 for POA. I know a lot of others are shocked and sad to get a B3 as well but was it really that important to them like how important it was to me? I needed that to affirm my decision for the course. I needed that to prove to myself that I can really take up Accounts without much difficulty. But that was when the downhill spiral started. I wasn't posted to any of my top few choices, but to my 11th choice. Pathetic, really. Really really humiliating.

Anyway I don't know why I just said all the things I've said -_-

I'm just insecure, as a whole.

I'm scared to get judged by others. I tend to feel useless in most situations. I'm helpless and desperate at times. I push people away because I know I'm inadequate for anybody. I like to spend time alone sometimes because the only person who can really judge me, is me. I want to be enough for not everybody, but just somebody. I make new friends, I have all this relationships, but I'm always scared that they will leave me. I find it hard to give up on someone because I know it's easy for them to give up on me (may not make sense to others but it's okay). I love to love. I need to be with people who can make me feel needed and wanted.

I need to know that I'm enough.

And that's when people start leaving

Algebra

2011-12-26T19:52:00.000+08:00

And so while I was keeping away quite a lot of my belongings, I found this stack of maths equations etc.

I remembered for a split moment, how much I loved working on Algebraic manipulations.

Ah, one of the simple things in life. :)

New change

2011-12-26T19:38:00.000+08:00

Oh anyway, my sister and I together with the help of my mum and my younger sister managed to have a mini make-over for our room. Now we have our individual study tables and this is mine :)

Take my hand

2011-12-26T19:18:00.000+08:00

Merry ~~(belated)~~ Christmas!

Hello everybodyyyyyyyyyy! I hope everyone's have had a wonderful Christmas celebration with your families/friends/loved ones. I did so with my family :) (Though I was coughing/blowing my nose all the way)

My two sisters and I had a nice, quiet Christmas eve dinner at home with takeaways from the coffeeshop near our house. There were Christmas cookies and sweet desserts too! :)

Everything for just the three of us :) Oh and Christmas is about giving/receiving presents right? I received my first present on Christmas eve! The gift(s) were the considerate kind. They will make me feel better and make me feel good. They are practical but not really expensive. They were the perfect gifts for me. Wanna know what they are?

The perfect gift for someone who has been coughing, having a blocked nose, sneezing like mad, having a fever. All the sicknesses can be driven away by these two wonderful presents, hehe. But currently, I'm only about 50% recovered. I think.

I hope I'll be fully recovered these few days :(

FIP final assignment

2011-12-23T02:08:00.001+08:00

So the last week of school was pretty hectic for me and I believe for everybody else. It was really a physically and a mentally draining hell of a week for me but I'm glad that the ordeal is over.

This is what my final assignment for FIP looks like. I took the pictures from Peggy's iPod because my phone camera is failing me and yeah, practically it's shutting down for good soon I guess. I hope not. Please let it last till the arrival of my new phone which I don't know when and how I'm going to get it. For the final assignment we were required to produce 4 designs, a mood board and a trend board. I did an extra cover board too, heheh.

Cover board

Mood board

Design 01

Design 02

Design 03

Design 04

My theme was space. I like space and galaxies and the colours ah. I just hope that the cover page, the mood board and the trend board will pull my grades up because my designs are really bullshit. All of these took me 4 days ohmygosh. Please, at least a B please please please. :(

Meet up with Hengle and Melody!

2011-12-23T01:55:00.000+08:00

Hello! It's been a really long while since I've last posted in here, was too busy with a lot of many things. And I'm finally un-privatising my blog because the sad period is overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Okay anyway, moving on~ I met up with Hengle and Melody today!!!!!!! (Today as in 22nd December 2011). And speaking of which..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH LE!!!!!!!!!!

I hope you've had a great birthday celebration and I hope you did enjoy yourself! So sorry I can't make it for tomorrow's outing but you guys just have loads of fun alright! I hope to see you soon! :D

Heheh. So I met up with Hengle and Melody for a catch-up session and gifts exchange session, haha! We met up at around 6++ because I was late, so sorry! And we talked and talked and laughed and laughed but it was all great :) We had our dinner at Pastamania and there was this one part which was really funny. We wanted to get a waiter to help the three of us take a photo so Melody spotted a waiter and called out to him but he just ignored Melody, HAHAHA. Omg that was damn epic and funny! Melody was like, "Sorry? Sorry?" but the waiter just walked past like that LOL. Hengle and I just started laughing and laughing, HAHAHA. And through the time that we were laughing there was this uncle who kept staring at us. Pfft. Laughter can't be contained please.

It was a short meet-up session but I really really had great fun today. It was just purely about enjoying myself and about laughing at everything. That's a great feeling to me, you know? To be able to laugh at practically everything and to do so with great company of friends. :) Thank you LP and Melody for the gifts and most importantly, thank you for today. :)

Design

2011-12-18T22:26:00.000+08:00

DOTC 1 STARTING TOMORROW. YES. GAME ON.

Determined

2011-12-16T20:14:00.000+08:00

Out of Goodbyes

2011-12-16T19:45:00.000+08:00

This week has been a hectic one for me, both physically and mentally. FIP and ComDI are now done for good. That's the only thing worth a smile.

But today was the saddest day of all for me.
I know the end is near, I just don't want to acknowledge it.

Forgive You/Me

2011-12-15T17:30:00.000+08:00

“Forgive me for liking you too much, I’ll forgive you for not liking my enough. Forgive me for the loud racing of my heart, I’ll forgive you for not hearing it. Forgive me for finding you amazing, I’ll forgive you for never noticing. Forgive me for wanting to be with you more than anything, I’ll forgive you for avoiding me. Forgive me for being so pathetic, I’ll forgive you for taking advantage of it. Forgive me for not being able to let go, I’ll forgive you for never holding on.”

Very relevant. And that is saddening.

I was there when you said forever and always

2011-12-15T01:51:00.000+08:00

"Forever & Always"

Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye
And we caught onto something
I hold onto the night, you looked me in the eye and told me you loved me

Were you just kidding?
'cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down
We almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Baby what happened, please tell me?

'cause one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the door

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always

Was I out of line?
Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide
Like a scared little boy
I looked into your eyes
Thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure

So here's everything coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute, but I don't anymore

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it baby, I don't think so

Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything
Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything

'cause it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always

Oh, I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always

And it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it baby, you said forever and always... yeah

Departure

2011-12-13T22:07:00.000+08:00

I noticed I haven't been tweeting much these three days, nice change there. Anyway I suddenly remembered I cried in school today during ComDI because of one video.

Classical music + thinking of the departure of a loved one.
Phew.

Gonna be 6 months soon.

Seems like forever

2011-12-13T22:05:00.001+08:00

So over

2011-12-13T21:06:00.000+08:00

I have so many things on my mind right now and how I wish I have the time and energy to slowly sort them out and set my priorities right again. I have finished like maybe 50% for my final assignment for FIP but I feel like I have too many things left undone. I don't know. I'm lacking the motivation and will to complete my assignment.

Totally not in the mood for work or anything.
I just want something. Something I will never get to have.

We'll be a dream

2011-12-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

Cute and/or sweet couples are everywhere.. Walao :(

Time to date my assignments again. They won't leave me alone. I'm so loved.

Hahahahahahahahahahaha.

Won't

2011-12-10T11:48:00.003+08:00

Same song, different times

2011-12-10T10:34:00.002+08:00

It is in you, to carry on.

:')

One lacking, one overload

2011-12-10T10:29:00.001+08:00

“There’s a reason I said I’d be happy alone. It wasn’t ‘cause I thought I’d be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It’s easier to be alone. Because what if you learn that you need love and then you don’t have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It’s like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever.”
— Grey’s Anatomy

As a Scorpio, I won't give up on anything that I want or would like to achieve, I would try my best, again and again. As a human, I don't know when should I give up on something and I need others' constant reminders and advices that I finally see it through. I find it hard to give up on anything, particularly giving up on something/someone which/who I dearly love and cherish. I don't know how to go about doing it but whenever I get sad or unhappy due to that someone or something, I start to think.

Throughout these few months, I've experienced the death and loss of my close family member, and I've experienced the loss of the feelings of a living person. I don't which hurts more, but it still managed to cut me inside all the same. I have been telling myself to hold on to this particular subject because I know I love this person and I don't want this person to ever disappear from my life. But in my attempt to keep him by my side, he has slowly edged himself further and further away from me. I hate it when that happens but then again, it's not the first time anyway. That got me asking myself, "Since it's not the first time this has happened, why not just let it go?"

“When someone comes into your life, they are there for a reason - you either learn from them or be with them right till the end.”

I think the quote above is really relevant to everybody. When you open your heart and welcome someone into your life, there will only be two endings. One, that they will always stay in your heart and be there for you through everything because that's just who they are, to be there for you literally through everything. The second ending, I'm sure the one most people would dislike, is to open your heart again and allow them to leave. Maybe to some people, commitment is just non-existent. And that to me, is equivalent to the second ending. All the while when I was thinking of blogging about this and thinking about what to write, it's a complete blank. I don't know what else to say, I don't know what else to do. Funny how the person I love can easily let me feel as worthless and as unwanted as anything but with an easy snap he can bring everything back around. Sure this kind of relationship can be exciting and even passionate to some but to me, it's just a roller-coaster of emotions. To be brought high up to the sky only to be brought down lower than the ground isn't something I would be happy about. I've had some great memories and I've had bitter ones, but right now at this crossroad, I'm not sure if I want to be on this roller-coaster anymore. The ride is causing me too much grief, though whenever I'm at the top I get really happy. I can't be fine through the two extremes. How can anyone be, really? Knowing that you're about to have another fall isn't really nice when you're at the top.

I know the person I'm referring to may not even read my blog nowadays. Such a pity, and such a contrast because the same person from a year ago would religiously read everything I've posted on the social networking sites. It may not mean much, but it shows a decreasing level of interest and enthusiasm. No?

I'm posting this because I know the person won't read it and I know he is stressed over his examinations and what not. So let's all wait for one more week. Just 7 more days, and maybe things will all be different. It may be good or it may be bad, but I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I'm keeping the faith, just like always, just like how it's been taken granted of, just like what he has forgotten.

:)

A day in school

2011-12-05T18:27:00.000+08:00

I'm currently blogging from Peggy's Macbook because I:

Have nothing to do
Am waiting for time to pass (6.30PM)
Feel like blogging
Don't feel like using my own laptop

Anyway, she's doing her own work and right now I'm using her Macbook and it's so freaking nice to typeeeeee. Vaddi just left not long ago like maybe 15 minutes ago and Ruixian left about 35 minutes ago or something. There's a submission for FIP tomorrow (career wear) and I still have quite a lot of things to do, come to think of it. I have to do two more production drawings (one pair of pants and one dress) because Wilson edited my designs.. But it's okay because they look so much nicer now, haha! And well I have to color my three figures and to re-print my mood board(s) because they are so plain..............

It's so warm now!

I'm waiting for 6.30PM because I'm meeting my Programme group for the station games thingy. We have to come up with games for the DOTC (design orientation training camp), haha.

Okay it's 6:23PM already! Time to prepare and meet my groupmates! :)

Sorry uh. Macbook in Novy's hands = Photobooth (and)/or blogging :P

TEARING

2011-12-04T16:54:00.000+08:00

Ok I seriously don't know why I am so affected by 'You're the Apple of my Eye'. I've been listening to the theme song on repeat for 2 hours (OMG, 2 hours................) and I keep tearing omg wth is this...............

Such a strong hold over me :(

Goodbye November!

2011-12-04T12:49:00.000+08:00

So this post is late for 3 days now.......... Seriously so tired of having mountain of assignments day after day. Clearing one means you're making way for another pile, urgh. Anyway November passed by damn quickly, oh my gosh. It's already the fourth of December!! And that's like 27 more days to the start of the new year (-_-) Seriously where did all the time go?! Anyway, November was a really hectic month for me. Here goes:

Had Drawing Essentials and Italian modules for the block
Italian rocks!!!!!!!!!
Sent out letters
Went back to Indonesia for my cousin's wedding at Tanjung Pinang
Celebrated my birthday on the 6th of November with my family :)
Celebrated my birthday with Jason :)
Celebrated my birthday on the 8th with DC25
Met up with Isabelle!
Spent 11/11/11 with Jason
Went back to Indonesia again to visit Grandma
Had to work on 40 sketches for my DE assignment -_-
Went shopping with Peggy!
Spent a lot of money x_x
Celebrated anniversary with Jason ♥
Went for DOC Subcomm Recruitment interview
Got accepted into DOC subcomm team
Went back to Indonesia again for Granny's birthday
Went to Belakang Padang with my cousins and siblings
Wore a lot of jeans in the month!
Drifted away from a very dear friend of mine
Am actually sad but don't know what to do, haha
Had a change of spectacles (which isn't what my actual degree is.....)
Spent a lot of time in school
Rushed assignments and slept at 6 etc
Did reflections in the shower almost everyday, haha!

The update for November isn't really as much as I thought, but I have a feeling I missed out on quite a few things....... Hmm.

Alright so it's the last month of the year 2011. I hope this year quickly ends because it's one of the suckiest year ever. Let's all make the best out of the remaining days to make differences in our lives. :)

Back to assignments!

You're the Apple of my Eye

2011-12-03T20:20:00.002+08:00

I have wanted to watch 'You're the Apple of my Eye' since forever. My Facebook and Twitter have always been spammed about how nice it is with comments like "OMG!!!!! THE MOVIE SO NICE OMG.", "AHHHH! Just watched 'You're the Apple of My Eye' and it's so nice! Good movie!!!!" etc etc. You get my point. So yesterday I finally caught it with Jason. And.............. THOSE COMMENTS ARE TRUE, THE MOVIE IS SO NICE. OMG. I can't find the right words to really describe how I feel about the movie though. It is a movie about friendship, high school, love, life, regrets and it is really, really very meaningful. For the first time ever (I think), I teared because of how sweet and how touching the movie was, instead of being sad. The movie was really good. :')

Did I mention that the main lead is hot and handsome too? Heheh.

If such a guy exist, I believe a lot of girls will be running into his arm, wanting him to make them his.

PANDA EYES ALREADY

2011-11-30T17:39:00.002+08:00

My dark circles better fucking maintain a bit.

I'm seriously so exhausted right now. For the past two nights I have had five hours of sleep. For the fucking past TWO nights. Tired to the maximum already cannot tahannnnnnnnnnn :(

Meet Emo

2011-11-29T13:33:00.000+08:00

"My name is Emo. I don't like school, just like how my owner hates school. School makes my owner tired and frustrated and she's always lack of sleep. My heart aches whenever my owner doesn't have enough sleep because then she'll ignore me and talk to her imaginary friend, the Internet."

A glimpse of a Kampong Life

2011-11-27T19:59:00.000+08:00

I'm back from Indonesia! A really good break for me since school is starting to get heavy and annoying. (I know I'm supposed to focus on my school work since it's getting heavy, LOL.) But yeah anyway, I really enjoyed myself thoroughly because I get to see my family and I get to really chill and relax~ Whoop whoop!

My granny celebrated her 82nd birthday on Saturday!! Almost everyone was there but some couldn't make it due to work or something like that which brings me to this. I know everyone has their own schedules and they'll be busy with school/work etc. But hasn't this year taught us a lesson? Hasn't the sudden passing of Aunt taught everyone a valuable lesson that life is unpredictable and that we shouldn't take anything for granted? I don't like the fact that some of us think that it's okay to miss a year's celebration 'because there is one every year'. Like I said, life is unpredictable and not to mention the fact that Granny is getting old in years. So why can't everyone just put aside work for just one day and come together for a celebration? This may sound very blunt and rude but yes, this is exactly how I feel.

Okay back to the celebration!

All the different families have a colour code assigned. My family was the 'Yellow' team and there were other colours like red, brown, green, purple, pink etc. We were told that black, white and blue aren't 'good' colours, or should I say, auspicious colours.

I asked my eldest sister to help me take a photo together with my dad and then a funny thing happened. (Ok not really funny but still the process was a little interesting!) My second elder sister joined us, and then my youngest sister and mother, and my brother, any my sister and brother-in-law. So in the end, we had someone else helping us to take a photo.............

TADAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!

Haha I thought that was really funny!! I really am so proud and happy of my family. I think our parents did a great job raising all their five children (not being egoistic or anything, but as compared with the other families, I think we're all really lucky to be the children of our parents.) Our family has discussed about this quite a number of times and each time the conclusion is that my parents brought us up as properly as they could and I'm thankful for that :)

So then I went to have a picture taken with my beloved granny:

(with my extra cousin at the back)

And I took a picture (pictures, actually) with my younger sister. The both of us just changed our spectacles recently and the designs of the frames are very similar!

Don't we look even more alike now? Hehe. :)

After the lunch, we went to drive around and looked at houses which belong to the upper class residents of Batam. Whoa, seriously, they are overly filthy rich. All the houses are at least two stories high and the designs all look extremely expensive x_x

After driving around we (my brother, my second elder sister, the Kang family, my three guy cousins, my cousin with her husband and my other cousin) set off for another island off Batam. Belakang Padang which literally means behind the Padang, haha! (I think.........) Anyway it's been at least 10 years since I've been there so I was really looking forward to this trip. We waited for a motor boat to ferry us to the island and it was starting to rain. The feeling of being on a motor boat again really made me so nostalgic. I was reminded of my old Kampong house, the one in which I grew up in. Memories, memories~ Hahaha! :)

We reached our uncle and auntie's house (we stayed at their house) and put down our belongings and waited for the rain to subside before we make our way to all the coffee shops to get our dinner. The rain was heavy and then it was not, and then it was heavy again, and so on and so forth. We left the house when there was a slight drizzle and it began to rain heavily again after we reached the coffee shop, thank goodness. We had our dinner there and it was quite a spread. There were so many good food, hehe :)

Oh and on the way back to my uncle's house, we went to buy milk tea from this shop called 'Double Peach'. There's actually a condensed milk brand which goes by that name and yeah the shop served the brand of the condensed milk justice cos the milk tea is really really good. Better than any milk teas I've tried in Singapore, I'm not kidding. And they come in such old-school, classic retro packaging too!

That's one of my cousins, an ex-hairstylist and a future real estate agent!

That's the main highlight actually. The rest of the night was spent on doing work (for me) and watching a-supposedly-horror-movie-but-the-plot-is-like-????? film for the rest. I managed to complete my 20 sketches last night and now I'm left with (still quite a lot) my mood board(s), my tracing of a collared long sleeved shirt, my expanded mindmap and an expository essay in point form. (And I have not bathed nor taken my dinner, whoop whoop!)

Okay I'm drifting off-topic again. My uncle's house has a balcony and the view of Singapore can be seen, though not clear and not very near.

The part where the lights are, that's Singapore for you. :)

Oh and this morning, we walked around the area and had our breakfast. We had two sets of breakfasts (yes). One at the coffee shop and another set at home because we bought take aways. We had Chendol in the morning! The shop sells ice drinks and desserts like Ice Kachang and Chendol in the morning. Strange but it's okay because they taste great even though they were too generous on the sugar level.

Then we walked around some more after the first set of breakfast and our auntie brought us to this area where it's like a pavilion by the sea kind of thing. There was a clearer view of Singapore since it's daytime.

Looks quite faint still but the view is more obvious than the one the night before.

Well then, there was nothing much after that. We soaked our feet in the sea, bathed, packed and prepared to leave. I really enjoyed myself a lot these 3 days and I'm glad I didn't neglect the importance of family value and participation though I had a lot of work to do. I want to and I know I will be able to juggle all these in future. I want to have a balance of relationships but I kinda still suck in balancing but it's okay, if there's a will, there's a way. Definitely. :)

An interesting quote

2011-11-25T00:08:00.001+08:00

“Married in white, you will have chosen all right. Married in grey , you will go far away. Married in black, you will wish yourself back. Married in red, you’ll wish yourself dead. Married in blue, you will always be true. Married in pearl, you’ll live in a whirl. Married in green, ashamed to be seen, Married in yellow, ashamed of the fellow. Married in brown, you’ll live out of town. Married in pink, your spirits will sink.”

820

2011-11-24T22:56:00.001+08:00

Collected my new pair of spectacles today! :) :) :)

I'll look studious from now on.

(Pfft, what am I saying. I'm studious all along :P)

The workload for this weekend is ccccc-razy please! Let's not talk about ComDI (Communicating design ideas) first since there will be a class tomorrow and there will be more work, just that we're still clueless about it. For my other module (fashion illustration and production drawing/design), I have a lot of things to tick off on my to-do list. First off, I have to purchase a set of markers which will cost me at least $70+ (-_-), then I'll have to get a ring file and at least 50 pocket holders. I'll have to think of a title/theme for the assignment, (which is a casual wear collection), record findings from the net, find key images for my 'inspiration' and for the 'trends' going on, come up with a mood board, a colour/fabrics board, an inspiration board. And..... I'll have to complete 20 sketches. WHOOP WHOOP. I have such a fascinating school life.

And I'm going back to Indonesia tomorrow for my grandmother's birthday. Whoop! Hi everybody, say hello to Novy the screwed.

2111

2011-11-21T00:19:00.000+08:00

Happy anniversary, BNB!

I'm not gonna write much on here given that you'll be receiving a loooooong letter anyway! Thanks for the past 365 days. Be it good or bad, at least there was you through it all. :)

I love you.

Church

2011-11-20T21:55:00.000+08:00

So proud of you for attending church :)

Take care and see you soon!

Something real

2011-11-20T01:11:00.000+08:00

"I want to be skinny to the point where when I sit down my stomach doesn't make a roll. To the point where my thighs are just close enough to the perfect size. To the point where my collar bones stick out. To the point where I don't feel uncomfortable and have to question myself whether I should wear something or not. A body that suits me, satisfies me and everyone else around me."

RANDOMMMMMM

2011-11-19T00:44:00.000+08:00

Overdue post 2

This post is going to be a really random post. I took random photographs of random objects at random timings and now I'm posting a random overdue post but it's okay. All of the posts are for my future self. I feel like I'm writing letters to my future self whenever I blog anyway, hehe.

There was one fine day when I was on the car with Ruixian and her dad, I saw this blue van.

Did you see it? No? Nothing special in this photo? Okay hold on!

Of course it is special! It reads 6689!!!!!!

And everybody knows that 6689 is NOVY.

Okay maybe not everyone knows but still, this van is driving around looking for me.

I know it, I can see it just by the license plate. HAHA. ;)

Okay I shall let you guys see a photo of my Italian lecturer - Riccardo Zecchin. (Whom up till now, I haven't been able to find on Facebook. How is that even impossible?! I thought Facebook has become a total stalking website for everybody? WHY IS IT THAT I CAN'T FIND MY ITALIAN LECTURER, WHY OH WHY.)

Okay wait, not like he's hot or cute or anything. He's none. As in he's friendly and warm and yeah, the cheerful kind of people.

Anyway I found this picture funny because he is the Music Man in this photo. Get it?

Okay lame.

Oh and there's this assignment last week in which the class is required to draw a portrait of themselves. How is that possible? First you'll have to take a full body picture of yourself. (Please ask for assistance from your friends)

Alright, then you paint with ink.

Then you sign it off.

I like the way I signed my name in the picture. So nice and kewtz.

OKAY I'M GETTING REALLY SLEEPY.....

Last random picture:

I traded my dress which was at $18 for 6 rings which were going at 3 for $10 ;)

OKAY GOODNIGHT BYEBYE.

Walk for Rice, anyone?

2011-11-19T00:30:00.000+08:00

Overdue post 01

Hi I'm back blogging but it's okay because I don't have any unfinished work (*shakes butt violently while holding up the peace sign while saying, "You mad, bro?") Teeheeeeeee. Yes that's how happy I am. Okay wait, I don't do all that when I'm happy though.... Haha you should get what I mean!

So few days ago.. Not exactly few days ago, I think it was weeks ago? Okay my phone just told me that on the 4th of November 2011, I walked for rice in school. What's 'Walk for Rice'? It is actually a form of charity work! For every 100 metres you walk, you donate one bowl of rice to the needy and the poor. Sounds good isn't it? Of course it is! I went with Peggy since the rest of my classmates have done so earlier on in the day. The both of us rushed to walk 3 rounds because Italian class was about to start. It was drizzling then!

I really am happy whenever my school organises something like this for us to help the poor. It actually kills two birds with one stone. Firstly, when you walk for the event, you get to exercise and that is beneficial for your body. Secondly, you are actually doing something good for the poor and needy!! I really enjoyed walking for rice. It's a nice experience and I really wanted to walk more rounds but couldn't due to class I was scheduled to have on that day. But nonetheless, it was a great experience and should TP ever have events like this again, I'll definitely participate. :)

Banners like this were hung through the trees surrounding the place blocked off for the event.

I find this so cute and encouraging! Yeah I think it's supposed to motivate the walkers and to let them feel good about themselves, haha! I couldn't resist not taking a photo though. So when I missed the chance to take the phone on my first round, I took it on my second round. Heheheh.

My three awesome sticks!!!!!!!

(P.S. Aren't those colours great together? Hehehe)

SO PROUD OF MY SCHOOL.

I LOVE TP.

Strong mind :)

2011-11-18T05:31:00.000+08:00

The time now is 5:28AM and I just want to blog to express how happy I am and how proud I am of myself for my determination and will to stay up the entire night completing my assignments.

Ladies and gentlemen, I've completed my A2 drawing and my 40 sketches. *Applause* Hehehe. Okay my neck is aching like mad now. Gonna pack up and brush my teeth and head to bed.

Good night/good morning. :)

HAPPYGIRL94

Prawney~

2011-11-17T02:14:00.001+08:00

Lunch I cooked for my sister and I :)

Haha I used up all the prawns that were in the fridge. It's obvious isn't it? :x
The prawn dumplings were ready-made so yeah.

Anyway I'm not supposed to be blogging but I just want to save this post for my future self. Hehe.

Buona notte!

(Not really, I'm still doing work though!)

PISSED OFF TTM

2011-11-14T00:12:00.000+08:00

I AM SO FREAKING PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW.

Stupid phone connections can go and die, seriously. It's not cool to listen to robotic voices when I'm really urgent in looking for the person on the phone. But then again the person is damn SKNGASJGNRIGN too for falling asleep on me, GAHHHHHHH.

I'M SO PISSED OFF NOW I CAN KILL A MILLION ANTS.
AGJRWIGJRWIGJRWGIOJRIG

AHHHHHHHHH SO PISSED SO PISSED SO PISSED OMG
THE MORE I THINK ABOUT IT THE MORE PISSED I AM RIGHT NOW.

FUCK. EGJEWIGJEWIGJWIOGJWGIOWJGIOWJ
DAMNIT
GNWIGWRIGJRWIGJWRIGJRMIJFIOJRSIOFJEWFRW

From a year ago

2011-11-11T23:40:00.000+08:00

My boyfriend is an ass. Totally. :)

Thanks for hacking into my Facebook, Twitter, blog ah!

But most of all, thank you for remembering the date you promised a year ago.

And thank you for spending 11-11-11 11.11PM with me.

♥♥♥

11.11.11.11.11.11

2011-11-11T21:28:00.001+08:00

I love novrianti santosooooooooooooooo <3
shes bathing in the toilet now LOL but who cares,she thinks that im some blog nerd that doesn know how to hack into her things and stuff or use a blog but haiz. Smart tan still came and post this. lalalalalalalalalala merry christmas

Happy seventeenth!!!!

2011-11-11T14:13:00.000+08:00

(Finally blogging about my birthday!)

So the minutes leading to my birthday, I had a terrible and horrible and totally vegetable bad stomach ache. It ached so much that I had to make several trips to the toilet but each time I end up with unfinished business, if you get what I mean. So there goes the entire cycle repeating, me rushing to the toilet, signed a contract but there's unfinished business, leave the meeting room, then yeah everything repeats, LOL.

Anyway Isabelle called me at 11:55PM or so I think! Then we talked on the phone and all and as we were talking, my phone received messages and Jason wished me on MSN and the stream of wall posts began to flood Facebook, haha! It was pretty exciting you know, to see the number of people wishing you slowly and steadily increasing. But there's one thing that gets me though. With the information displayed on Facebook, you can really see who are the ones who bother to remember/wish you on your birthday. Sure it gets pretty nice when tons of people wish you via Facebook but that got me wondering, let's say Facebook doesn't post on your home-page who are having their birthdays and so on, who would be the ones who remember? And what with the reminder on Facebook, people hardly text/call to personally wish you anymore. :/

Thank you Isabelle and Marjorie, for the phone calls! And so sorry my phone died halfway through the conversation, haha! Thank you everyone who wished me be it via phone calls/emails/texts/MSN/Facebook etc. :)

This year the first to call was Isabelle, first to text (at 23:59) was Jing Yi, first to text (at 00:00) was Godric, first to wish me on MSN was Jason, first to wish me on Facebook was again, Jason. Hahaha. Oh and Jason was again the one who was the first to wish me in person. I don't know what my brother was doing, sad. HAHA.

On the morning of my birthday, Jason was supposed to come over my place at 9 in the morning but I woke up at 9.30 to his text saying that I gotta rise and shine because he's on his way already. In which I panicked and hurry went to wash up and everything. The moment I came out of the toilet, Jason was outside of my house with Mac Breakfast, hehehe. :)

I told him I don't know if I want to eat Big Breakfast or Sausage McGriddles so in the end he bought both, d'awwwwww. :) :) :) I took the Big Breakfast in the end because I wanted to have the egg and I wanted to have the hotcakes so yeah, haha! And somewhere along the end of our breakfast my brother went to cook instant noodles for himself so he asked Jason and I if we wanted some but we said no. But..... right after my brother finished cooking his noodles, and after the aroma of the noodles drifted from the kitchen to the dining area, Jason said he's hungry. LOL. Yeah that was random.

We stayed at home because I needed to finish my sketches. He helped me with the re-sketch of my 1-point perspective drawing, thanks BNB! I went to prepare to head out after I completed the sketching and I got damn annoyed because I didn't know what to wear.. Okay it sounds damn lame and everything but I was really so frustrated looking at my wardrobe and having no clue at all what to pick out from there, uffa. I swear I got so angry that I teared, LOLLLLLL. Aiya. Whatever. So then after preparing we headed out. The plan was to get to E!Hub to catch a movie (In Time) but there wasn't any suitable movie timings so we settled for 'Tower Heist' instead. Okay the plan was to have lunch at Just Acia, watch a movie, go bowling, then head to Everything with Fries for dinner.

Bought the tickets first before heading to Just Acia and weeeeee, it's been about a year plus since I've been there so I was really looking forward to it and every option on the menu look really appealing, haha! In the end I settled for I-don't-know-what and Jason had Tom Yum Pasta or something like that. Ordered a few sides to go along as well, heheh.

After a reaaaaaaally filling lunch we went to watch 'Tower Heist'. It's a good film because it is really funny and yeah, it's funny. I don't know what else to say because the movie is supposed to be a comedy so I guess it'd good since we found it to be funny.. Right? Yeah.

Oh and I got annoyed at the later part of the day too because there wasn't any Strawberry Shortcake at any of the shops I've been eyeing for :( I wanted to try Rive Gauche's strawberry shortcake and I've been mentally having it for a few weeks but when we got there, it's sold out.......... By then I was already like -_- cos you know.. A birthday cake..? Ok. Walked all over T1 but there wasn't any cake that looked appetising at all. Headed down to TM because I wanted to settle for Four Leaves' strawberry shortcake but guess what, it's sold out too. (-_-)''''' My mood was already zero then. UFFAAAAAAAA. But thanks Jason for trying and trying<3

Bought a chocolate mousse cake from Polar in the end and we cabbed back to my place. It was already 9 (x_x) Had a mini celebration near the swimming pool and then we took lots and lots of pictures!

Oh I forgot to mention, Jason bought me a helium balloon and 3 stalks of red roses too......... D'AWWWWWWWWW. Thank you heheh ;)

Long lost time

2011-11-10T16:03:00.000+08:00

Okay I think I'll blog about my birthday and all later on when I get back from school and after I have dinner/catch up session with Isabelle the Ning square!!!

Wedding!

2011-11-10T16:01:00.000+08:00

Hey. So I have quite some time to spare right now because my lesson (Italian) starts at 6PM today and there's no Drawing Essentials class, fuck yes. Anyway I wanna do up a proper post on my cousin's wedding, my birthday, school/life these few days and yeah. :)

Cousin's wedding (5th November 2011)
Bro and I woke up early on Saturday morning planning to get the earlier ferry booking and get back to Batam. We woke up at around 7 but when I woke up at 7 my brother was already bathing. So I went back to sleep but when I woke up at 7.40, he was still in the bathroom (-_-) Anyway I complained about his long visit to the bathroom straight after he came out and then I went to bathe. Got ready and all but had a last minute change of plans because my cousin (mother of Rikyu, Mieko and Ryuu) wants to go back together with us as well. In the end we left house at around 9 I think. I can't really remember. Took a cab to Harbor Front and left for Batam. Met up with my father, my elder sister, my brother-in-law and my younger sister and the seven of us took another ferry to Tanjung Pinang. In case you don't know where that is, it is a city further away from Batam that is near Bintan. I'm sure most people would have heard of Bintan.

We didn't really have much time to spare when we got to the hotel there but we did managed to grab a quick bite at the nearby coffeeshop before heading to the bridal shop for our make up and all.

Like I've said in the earlier post, the wedding was simple but yet it was beautiful. I just love weddings so maybe my opinion would be biased, hahaha. It's so nice to see a couple celebrating their love and letting others witness the reunion of the relationship, ahhhhh so sweet! Hahaha :) So then yeah we went up to sing and all for the couple and you know what, I actually made a short speech on stage. Short. Yet still so scary and all! We were in the middle of the song-singing and there was this part in which there's only the melody, but no lyrics. And so I urged the group to say something to wish the couple or something but we were like 'Why don't you say it?', 'I don't know how!' and etc. So in a moment of impulse, I grabbed the mic and said in Mandarin that we wish the couple to grow old together and to have a child soon, yeah something along that line. Do you know how shocked I was at myself? My gosh.. Anyway it was a good experience since it was a well-wishing kind of thing, hehe.

Unglam. HAHA.

The next morning all of us went to the same coffeeshop and had our breakfast. I know I'm not supposed to drink tea or milk tea or anything but the milk tea at that coffeeshop is REALLY good, seriously. Better than any milk tea I've ever drank in Singapore. That should say something. Haha!

So a group of us went up to my aunt's place to see her cat, WHICH IS FREAKING ADORABLE AND FAT. Haha! It is seriously very intelligent and cute, gosh!

And it'll have weird poses like this:

We spent around 30 minutes at my aunt's place. Most of the time my younger sister and I were just playing around with the cat and got amazed/freaked out by its actions and poses, haha!

Oh by the way, on a really random note, I really like my mother's sense of dressing.

No wonder I want to dress fashionably as well (or try my best to) Hehe ;)

Oh and my mother and my eldest sister helped to braid my hair that day too! I liked it a lot because I have never had my hair braided long enough for it to really last the entire day or something like that.

Then all of us went back to either Singapore or back to our own house but my family and I went back to Batam to celebrate my birthday, heheh. :)

We went to this seafood restaurant by the sea for dinner and it's delicious, it's really nice (duh).

It was a good dinner, we ate and talked and took photos. :)

Thank you Dad, Mum, Sis(s), Bro, and Bro-in-law :)

A wedding, and a birthday

2011-11-09T11:48:00.000+08:00

Hey there! So in the past week, I attended my cousin's wedding at Tanjung Pinang and I celebrated my seventeenth birthday. Quite a hectic schedule, eh? Haha kidding. Anyway this is going to be a short post (not to mention a random one) since I'm supposed to be studying for my Italian quiz. I hope I can keep up the 9/10 standard or even better, score full marks. Since other people from my class can do it, I have no reason to believe why I can't, right? :)

Okay so it was a really nice wedding, simple, but nice. I like how all of us (the cousins) went up the stage and sang a song for the newly-wedded couple. I like how loud we were when we were shouting 'Yam Seng!' I like how happy everybody looked that nice. I'm just a sucker for romance and weddings, I teared so many times at different weddings, my gosh. LOL.

So here's a picture of my full family, all looking happy, all striking the same peace sign, all looking as one family. :)